Sam: I'm sorry I stopped talking last night, I was feeling sick. I want you so bad girl, hope you feel better tomorrow. (I stopped texted at 8 when I got a migraine and just wasn't feeling it. He texted me at 9 asking what happened and I told him I didn't feel good. I didn't want him to worry so I didn't tell him the whole truth because he knows my health. I just told him a headache, but a headache for me means more than that).
Sam: I keep looking at your txt. I want you so bad. I wish I was next to you, holding you, feeling your hot body against mind. I want all of you, Ryann.
Me: R u ok? I want u to hold me so much, I just don't want the same thing to happen again.
Sam: Yeh im ok, I want you Ryann I wish I was there to hold you and please your body.
Sam: I don't want it to be like last time either
Me: I'm not going to make u do something u don't want, but I don't want to get hurt again. I can't do just physical with u. And I don't exactly want a relationship (I just want exclusiveness, sorta, I don't care if he makes out with other girls, its more not sex with other girls, and no emotions- sleeping with other girls (he likes to cuddle to), things like that. And of course breaking up with the gf he doesn't know I know about. And I don't want to seem like the crazy bitch that I am, so I will do what I can to keep that to myself.)
Sam: Ok well like i have said, I will be in Charlotte over the smmer and next fall, maybe even Raleigh (he has a job in Charlotte where he did his internship (he is an electrical engineering major), or he's thinking about grad school at NC State, in Raleigh. I just know that Charlotte is 2.5 hours away and 1 hour was too far when we were actually together a year ago. I don't want him to be unhappy. I love Charlotte, but I can't move. I have a lease in an amazing apartment that is market valued $150 more than what I'm paying, and I have a lease in it until Dec, that would be really expensive to break. And I'm about to go full time at Target, which is really hard to do.)
Me: RTP is right here. But u have a job in Charlotte. I justk now even 1 hour was to much for u, I don't want u to be unhappy.
Sam: If I get u and great sex, then it would not be far.
Me: Only time will tell. But my apartent is worth Raleigh. Ud really like it.
And it continues, but those are the highlights. Maybe he's serious. He knows we are perfect for each other. Together we have amazing sex. We both love sex. We both have the same goals in life. We have the same taste. Everything is right when we are together, even he admits all of this, he did a week ago. But only time will tell.
Here goes the sex talk again... I have stuff to do.
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