Anyway, so I haven't hardly talked to him since. He hasn't seemed like he wanted to talk to me over the past week or 2, and I've been trying to figure out what happened. I thought it was actually because I had mentioned several times that I wanted to get back with him.
So I finally talk to him about it tonight, because I really didn't want it to be uncomfortable tomorrow. So I asked him what was going on, and I found out it's just my freak outs that's bothering him, that it's not that I keep saying I want to be back with you (which I will cool off on as well).
So everything is ok. He said he really likes talking to me. I told him that theres no way to say that I won't ever have another breakdown, but now that I have xanax and valium, and I'm trying to make an appointment with my psychiatrist in a few weeks to treat my depression and get on something permanent for anxiety. And I really think it will help!
I just feel like this is a really important trip:
1. I'm cooking for Sam: tuna casserole which is even better warmed up, and sex in a pan, which is really good. And we're watching Wall-e together- all in my hotel room!!!!!
2. I'm hanging out with Travis Chilcot, one of my good friends from school who lives in Charlotte. So I'm reconnecting with old friends and am working on making connections here.
3. I'm beginning my hunt for my Charlotte apartment. I know Sam won't help me much with this, but I am going to ask if he will at least give me more ideas, maybe drive me around for a little bit, just so that I can orient myself to the area.
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